Back track....WHAAATT????! If you're no longer serving tables, then how are you going to make a living? How are your bills going to get paid?? You need security, don't you?
Well, it came a time in my journey where I have to answer all of those with: "I'll do it with my acting career."
I became too comfortable. For four years I served Italian food where it became like second nature to do my job and do it well. Heck, not even just "well", but to the point where people would request me by name, waiting despite an empty restaurant just to sit in my section. I took command of my job with confidence and assurance; I was completely genuine and with that I truly found success there.
I was making a good living: paying all the bills, setting some aside for savings, and enjoying the fruits of my labor with movie tickets, trips, and the gym membership I've been wanting.
But I wasn't happy, I could sense that for a long time and my intuition knew exactly why: while life as a server was peaking, my career as an actor was plateauing, if not flat-lining. Yes, my confidence made me a great server, but why couldn't it equally assist my acting? Finally my gut was able to relay this message to the brain and it dawned on me: it's time to shake things up. So yeah, I took a risk and left a job that many others would kill for. But I didn't come here to be a waitress; I didn't travel 2500 miles away from family and friends just to do something I could do right alongside them. I came here to act, and my schedule wasn't allowing me to take classes, go to workshops, or even attend networking events. I was saying that I was an actor, but I hadn't been acting in a long time, at least not in the way that I had always imagined.
So I quit. Ironically, the moment I put my two weeks notice in, five auditions flooded in. I see it as a sign and, even though I'm too practical to know that it'll happen every week (although I wouldn't complain!), I know that it's going to happen because I have opened myself up completely to the opportunities I need. No, I'm not saying to quit your jobs and throw caution to the wind, but it is important to assess yourself, your goals, and where you are in your journey and what you need to do to progress. When I finally did this, I saw how far away I had veered that I knew a big risk was in order to get back on track.
My signature on my phone is "Leap, and the net will appear". Leap...take a risk...do something that scares you because the worst that can happen is that you'll grow and change. Living under the tent of security and safety doesn't always equate to happiness, and those latent, squashed desires will burrow through you with resentment. Life is too short not to take a risk on YOU.
So here we go....from career server to the career I feel destined for. And....jump....